bullet train...

that's life

fleeting

coming and going without pause

in an instance life as we know it can change

today, i am reminded of its fragility

this little life of mine

it will pass too soon, not hesitating for even my greatest dreams

what will i make of it

who will i become

what difference will me breathing have had on this world

no one else can determine it

i must decide...

let it be set apart.

let it be tears from laughter.

let it be of immeasurable love.

let it be servanthood.

let it be a glorious reflection of an eternal Kingdom.

let this be mine.

day in the life..

of katelyn ann spielman.

go to afternoon class.

take off jacket due to the hot hot heat.

come to a realization half-way through class.....

your "ladies" are only being supported by one strap.

look to left side,

find this:

no big, just your purple polka-dotted bra strap,

hanging out your sleeve,

for half the class period.

by.the.way.

you sit in the front row.

as you discreetly try to put the strap back inside your shirt,

your professor asks you a question.

a.day.in.the.life.

her sails.

 "she stood in the storm
&
when the wind did not blow her way
-- and it surely has not -- 
she adjusted her sails."

source

thanks be to the wise elizabeth edwards for uttering those words.

pin and cap...

grief...

 comes in slow waves.
 occasionally causing a stir to remind you it's still there.
you're not over it yet.
in the midst of grieving an identify lost, i can still find peace and miraculously do.

i.have.peace.

but goodness it's still salt in the wound to see pictures of what would've been.
 a hat. 
that's all it took to remind me, i'm still human, and therefore grieving naturally.

I know YOU are for me

it's getting harder.
everyday it grows more of a struggle.
to encounter those who've become aware of my precarious waiting.
to respond:
"it's forcing me to rely on the LORD's strength"
and it has. it has.
but it's oh so hard. i want this waiting to be done. over. fin. final.
whatever it may be. 
until then, this song is my comfort and reminder that no matter the result, 


you are for me


So faithful
So constant
So loving and so true
So powerful in all you do
You fill me
You see me
You know my every move
You love for me to sing to you

I know that you are for me
I know that you are for me
I know that you will never forsake me in my weakness
I know that you have come down
Even if to write upon my heart
To remind me who you are

So patient
So gracious
So merciful and true
So wonderful in all you do
You fill me
You see me
You know my every move
You love for me to sing to you

I know that you are for me
I know that you are for me
I know that you will never forsake me in my weakness
I know that you have come down
Even if to write upon my heart
To remind me that

I know that you are for me
I know that you are for me
I know that you will never forsake me in my weakness
I know that you have come down
Even if to write upon my heart
To remind me who you are


Kari Jobe's "You Are For Me"

my evil twin has arrived....

an evil plan was hatched.

on the toilet, over the weekend. let's all agree to agree that some of the best ideas are ponder in the shower and on the commode? mmkay? 


they.are.people.


so the plan started as a thought. "i hate using the toilet with other people," i pondered on the potty. when you live in a community such as a dorm, it's impossible to use your very own throne, unfortunately.


the thought led to a question: "how can i make sure no uses the toilet i wanna use????"


the question led to an idea: FAKE A BROKEN TOILET. 


so here's what happened 10 minutes ago. i finished watching courageous, and made a sign. see below!

she reads: "DO NOT USE! (pretty please) Proper authorities have been notified"


here's where this sign is brilliant. i purposely worded it, so i would not be lying. notice i did not say the toilet wasn't working, but instead, "do not use pretty please." then i made sure  to include the last part so the RA across the hall wouldn't call maintenance. 


to ensure i had the proper insurance that no one had used it, and ignored my sign, i did this:

i placed the door lock for the stall door on the toilet to see if anyone moves it. (it had already fallen off) i haven't reached the level of evil to vandalize property yet.


yay no sharing a toilet seat with other BOO-tays!:)


that.is.all.